Sincerely, 2011

To thepeoplelivinginthepast

The world hasn't ended yet. Though there have been some disastrous disasters. Though on the bright side, we've killed your terrorist!
Sometimes in times like these, where you find something that was once important to you, and what once centered your entire being and realized how much you've let go, it really makes you think about... why?
Perhaps its unhealthy to be completely submerged with the past that your eventually choking on your memories and the could haves desperately in need of some air. But then again sometimes its a better alternative then to constantly worry about what's ahead of you, calculating every decision and choice and the results they bring you.
To me of the past, if you're listening, (which I know you probably half are), regretfully I don't entirely remember what you were like, and in a sense I'm almost scared to become you once again. But if you really are reading this then do know that right now, if stress was a ladder baby you could use it to climb to Mars. Stop being so worried about change, and stop being so calculative on opinions, because one way or another love will find you. You're a great person and you should never put yourself down that eventually you deteriorate (become progressively worse) into this mindless bum of a human being that I am today.
As I read back onto these posts, which I recall I took entirely for granted and didn't put much effort into, I realize that they are amazing, and that I should have been more affirmed with who I am/was.
Please don't let your confidence go. It's a lovely puppy that misses its owner dearly.
To my friends in the past,
Sorry I was blind with ambition,
I never really learned how to look at the present, I was either too busy looking back or forward.
Thank you very much for staying with me, I love the people we have grown into. If I were to time travel, the only reason why I would be cautiously going my ways would be the risk of losing or changing the amazing relationships we have today. Please don't let go of me.
If only we were able to cherish the first years better.

Time is passing so fast, half the year has already gone, it's slipping like silk through my fingers. I don't want to finish my 6 years looking back this year the same way I am looking back now at your years, as much as I need and want to do well for my future, for the sake of my future, I wish to live fully so as not have any regrets.
Do know that I still have your happy memories, and they're growing beautifully.

Sincerely, with love, 2011